Realizing
As I sit here in my nice comfy blue chair, I came to a realization. I was talking on the phone with one of my closest friends in life. I have so many testimonies. I have been through a lot of life’s trials at such a young age. To be only a 18 year old i have looked death in it’s face maybe 2 times. Once as a premature child. The doctors told my mother that i was going to die later in the night. They told her to go ahead and prepare. Tears flowed. My father didn’t give up, he ran to the baby room and prayed as hard as he could. That night all the babies that were meant to die that night survived. You can’t tell me that God isn’t active in out lives. My next trial as a child, was that my head wasn’t growing at a normal rate (yeah lil head big body lookin butt). The doctors said i was going to be slow and have the brain capacity of a peanut. Now look at me, 18, I went to a private school and excelled and I have become a dancer and excelled further than they would have ever thought. I want to know where those doctors are today so i can send them a post card saying “I MADE IT”. Later in life around my sophomore year i was in a car accident, and the doctors told me that there was no way i would dance again. Dance is life, so by telling me this my eyes flashed in my eyes. That was not an option. I went to physical therapy and made a break through. My journey in dance since then has so beautiful and strong because I know how far I have come. And recently This past week i experienced something that truly knocked me off my feet. I started having a sore throat (thinking oh just a lil bug, i need some allergy medicine). The next day it proceeded to get worse. I couldn’t talk that well. So i went to the Health clinic, and they diagnosed me with a Sinus Infection. That’s pretty typical and plausible, i get those when the weather is so crazy. Something was different this time though. I couldn’t breathe as well. I couldn’t eat, drink, or swallow my own damn saliva. That was way different from before. I laid in bed for a day. In the dark. Wrapped up under my blankets sweating and getting chills at the same time. Unable to answer the phone because my throat was so closed. I hadn’t eaten in a couple of days at this point. I didn’t even notice from all the pain, I was dehydrated. My friend came to check up on me, and told me “you look like hell”. We wen to another doctor only to be told that it’s just a bad sinus infection. What i didn’t know, time was running out. I continued to feel bad and struggle with my throat. Finally my mother called and she realized that my conditions were horrible, so she rushed me to the ER. Once i got there they ran a CAT Scan and found a growth behind my tonsils. This growth was pushing everything in my throat together causing my air ways to close. THe doctor told me if i hadn’t come that night… I would have died. Death is no joke. That was an alarm to me. They had to do immediate surgery. They didn’t even have time to take me to the OR. Time was running, and all i could think of was what i hadn’t done and what i had done in life. Who i loved and who meant the most to me. Things i never said. Life can flash before your eyes in an instant. Maybe this reached u maybe it didn’t . IN life we all go through trials. SOmetimes sharing them help people get through what they are experiencing. I am on my way to recovery as i type. Thank God for the many blessings he has sent me :)
